It's True

You don't miss me the way I miss you.

Can you tell me it isn't true?

You never cared about us the way I do. 

Can you tell me it isn't true?

I'm Sorry I Made it Look Easy

I'm sorry I made it look easy

cause it's never been that way

for two years I cried myself to sleep

and still do any given day.

My heart still races when you text me

I still prep myself to answer

but instead of heart emojis

I now barely send an answer.

Please don't ask me how I am

What are you even asking for?

Im doing well, kept it at that

but I don't ask you anymore.

A little part of me still hopes

that maybe one day you'll admit

you had feelings for me all along

but just afraid to commit.

If you validate my feelings

maybe then it'll all be worth it

the sleepless nights and wondering why

we lost something so perfect.

Im sorry I made it look easy

moving on with someone new

but if you asked me to be honest

I would say it's always been you.

Already Gone

Don't want to hear about your hook up

and what she did to you

Don't want to hear about old break ups

how she took your heart and flew

down south to ol' Alabama 

how you're missing what you had

Don't want to hear how you miss me

now that everyone has left 

I'm no one's second choice

But I'm missing your voice

and even though it won't be easy

I gotta do what's best for me

Take me back where we began

it was you, me verses them

Now you know you had me all along

but im already gone

Don't bother asking me tonight

how long Ill be in town

cause even though I still want you

I'm gonna have to turn you down

So please don't bother asking me

Wanna go have one drink?

Can't put myself through that again

and we can't just stay friends

I'm no one's second choice

But I'm missing your voice

and even though it won't be easy

I gotta do what's best for me

Take me back where we began

it was you, me verses them

Now you know you had me all along

but im already gone

Closure

My brother asked me, "If she told you that she loved you today, would you choose her over your girlfriend?"

"No," I told him. And I meant that.

I'm happy with who I'm with right now and things are going amazing.

She listens to me and is so genuinely curious about me and about life.

She checks in on my mental health. She doesn't shy away from my nightmares.

She reaffirms that I am safe when she senses that I am getting paranoid at the store.

She treats my friends like they're family. She loves to bake them treats.

Her family treats me like one of their own. Her dad said he trusts me.

She helps me become a better person each day. I try to do the same for her.

Sometimes, I love her so much, not even the tightest hug in the world 

could get me as close to her as I want to be.

I love her. She loves me.

And we tell each other that everyday.

She's in all of my dreams. I tell my best friend. 

How can I have the best day of my life with a person I love so much,

and then come home and fall asleep and dream about someone else.

For God sakes, I never even dated her. I never even had the chance to kiss her.

How is it possible that I am still dreaming about her when I love somebody else?

"___ ain't the one hunny. We just think about the ones we didn't get closure from."