I'm Sorry I Made it Look Easy

I'm sorry I made it look easy

cause it's never been that way

for two years I cried myself to sleep

and still do any given day.

My heart still races when you text me

I still prep myself to answer

but instead of heart emojis

I now barely send an answer.

Please don't ask me how I am

What are you even asking for?

Im doing well, kept it at that

but I don't ask you anymore.

A little part of me still hopes

that maybe one day you'll admit

you had feelings for me all along

but just afraid to commit.

If you validate my feelings

maybe then it'll all be worth it

the sleepless nights and wondering why

we lost something so perfect.

Im sorry I made it look easy

moving on with someone new

but if you asked me to be honest

I would say it's always been you.