The One

Because when it's good, it's so good

Like I've known you my whole life

Laughing and staying up until 

the late hours of the night

When goodnight roll overs turn into

roll back overs and "I almost forgot"

I feel like I'm a kid again 

and try to remember why I stopped 

cause once again I feel fearless

throwing caution to the wind

reality taking a back seat 

so I can drive and hold your hand 

and I never cared much for kissing

until my lips met yours

and I felt the warmth of old love

when you wrap me in your arms

Because when it's good, it's so good

Like I've known you my whole life

Laughing and staying up until 

the late hours of the night

Swapping stories of our day

Like you're my closest friend 

and before we knew it

we'd lost track of time again

I soak it in and sleep so sound

I don't take these times for granted now

I know what it's like to lose your touch

and all these nights I love so much

You say my bad lucks all my fault

that I manifest my problems

when I just wanted to vent to you

and have someone in my corner 

You talk about your future adventures

with all your old best friends

never once including me

makes me question where were at

I run my fingers along your skin

You look so pretty in the sunlight

You take my hand and move it away

and I don't want to start a fight

I want to be the confident girl 

the one you had a crush on

but I'm gaining insecurities 

and being careful how I respond 

you've been through it too

I feel in love with an anxious/ avoidant

trying to hold on to my secure type

while trying to heal and be supportive

We've been through similar pains

and summited similar mountains

have similar triggers

and the bad days are slowly mounting

But once upon a time we took a break that broke me

Our self healing journeys took different paths

and Ill do anything to avoid that pain

and reliving all of that 

Because when it's good, it's so good

Like I've known you my whole life

Laughing and staying up until 

the late hours of the night

I soak it in and sleep so sound

I don't take these times for granted now

I know what it's like to lose your touch

and all these nights I love so much

Because when it's bad its bad

and the pros battle cons

asking myself if you're the one

or if were just another trauma bond