Fight or Flight

I almost typed, I blame you. 

Solely you. 

And then I deleted it.

If I lose her.

I blame me. Solely me. 

Your Apartment

 I’ll never forget sitting in your apartment. 

After a training in Iowa City

You invited me over

I was so nervous

Just to talk to you

You invited me today

I said I can’t today but I could have

I always got in my own way

I showed up in uniform

Feeling very confident

And you took me to Freddys for my first time

And that’s what I ordered tonight 

5 years later

And I’m thinking of you

We went back to your apartment

And we talked for so long

And as the hours past by

I didn’t want to go home.

As midnight hit, I knew it was time

I stood back up and said goodbye

You asked again if I wanted to stay

I said that I couldn’t and work anyways

And said okay, and walked me to the door

Not much more was said

But I always wonder if there was

And if I made a mistake

Will You Cry on My Wedding Day

Will you cry on my wedding day?

Will you think about me

All the times in my car

Driving around town

Blasting our favorite songs for hours

Ignoring everything we were going through

When you see the pictures I post

Will you get in your car and drive around

Blast your favorite songs when shes not around

So she cant see you cry

On my wedding day?

Will you cry on my wedding day

Will you think about me

Dancing around in the living room in the dark

Our favorite place to be

When you see the pictures i post

Will you think about the girl in the living room

Whose pieces you put back together

For someone else to love

Will you put on our old playlists

And turn the lights off

Dance around your room in the dark

And pretend it’s with me

Will you cry on my wedding day

Because I’ll cry on yours

To the friend that I’ve lost

And no longer yours

Will you cry on my wedding day

or will it be just another day

Will you feel nothing at all

Am I a long forgotten memory 

Give Me a Sign

Is it time to stay or time to go?

Maybe a break? I don't know.

Give me a sign, love

Give me a sign

Can you show me that you love me?

Can you show me that you care?

I ask for certain ways

and you say it isn't fair

How can I feel it?

How will I know?

When you go off with your friends

and I'm sitting at home

How can I feel it?

How will I know?

I kind of want you miserable alone

but you fucking love it

Is it time to stay or time to go?

Maybe a break? I don't know.

Give me a sign, love

Give me a sign

You say that you miss me

or that you probably will

I've never had to try so hard

to say how I feel

You say that you miss me 

and maybe you're right

that's what I tell myself before bed

I pretend it's all fine

I'm holding you back

but you say Im not

I say you want bigger things

You say Im all you want

You can travel the Earth alone

and never be fazed

While I wait for you return

and count all the days

Is it time to stay or time to go?

Maybe a break? I don't know.

Give me a sign, love

Give me a sign

I feel like I'm losing me

I feel like I'm losing you

Give me a sign, love

Give me a sign

Tell me I'm yours

and I'll tell you you're mine

Give me a sign, love

Give me a sign