The Signs I Didn't See

 Months ago, I begged for sign as to whether this was mean't to be or not. I don't know why it hit me so hard today but I guess I just held out as long as I could in order to wait for the sign that I wanted to read. Not the signs I was passing. Today I asked myself, "why this was so hard?" I guess that was the answer that I never wanted to see. Why is it so hard? Because it was never mean't to be. Maybe it's because there are bigger and better things out there waiting for me. Maybe it's because you would tie me down when I was mean't to keep reaching new heights. I guess you are doing what you are mean't to be doing and loving who you are suppose to love and I guess our paths were never mean't to cross in the ways that I wanted. There was a fork in the road you took a left while I was forced to merge right. Even though I realize this now, it doesn't make it any easier to put one foot in front of the other on my path. Each step is another that leads me away from you. The only thing that keeps me going is curiosity in what God has planned for me down my path. I can only trust that it is grand enough to make it worth never having gotten the chance to feel loved by you. My only hope now for us is that someday ours paths will cross again and I can tell you then how I used to feel about you but then tell you about all the amazing adventures I had because I didn't have you.