I Miss You

​I miss you. I know it’s my fault that we don’t talk anymore. I know I made the decision for myself. I don’t miss you sending me songs that remind you of her. I don’t miss texts to me crying about your ex who treated you like shit. I would never do that. I don’t miss not feeling worthy when I’ve done nothing wrong. I thought after 6 months I’d be further along in my healing journey but it all comes down to I miss you. Just your presence in my life. I didn't just lose a crush, or even someone I just loved. I lost a friend. Someone I could tell anything to. Someone I trusted. Someone who I respected. Your’e still all those things to me. But I can’t be anywhere near you. Cause I love you to much for my own good. For my own health. And frankly, you don’t deserve it right now. But I do still miss you and think about you everyday. I just wish I would stop.