Didn't Plan For This

I didn't plan for this to happen

I don't know where it came from

sitting watching "When Harry Met Sally"

and wondering if you're thinking about me

I'm not sure what changed, who changed

if in anyway, who's to blame

I'm not naming names, I'm just mad that

of course id be the one to fuck up a good thing

and I haven't even told you yet

but it weighs on my mind 

like Marius on Cossette

and I'm just feeling upset 

cause the second it's said

I know that reset

will not be an option

but I can't just drop it either

my texts are getting deeper

I want them to be perfect.

I want to show you that I can be smart

that I can be funny

and that I can be more than just your buddy

and maybe while reading through all these thoughtful texts

you'll find that you actually love me

like I love you

I hate to even think about you in that way

and I don't mean that bad, 

but once it's been said then I can't take it back

it's just that we've been best friends for nine years

so why would I fall for you now and ruin that?

I wish I would have fell for you when we first met 

but life ain't easy or at least it hasn't been yet

I'm filled with regrets and I'm standing here now

feeling embarrassingly obsessed with you 

and I just want to scream it from the rafters 

but for now i'll just settle on writing it down 

cause then I'll still have her 

and maybe that's all that matters 

love is good

love is kind

love is messy

but its a blessing

and maybe in time you'll see it too

or am I a fool

cause while I'm falling for you

you're falling for her 

and she don't even love you 

so you tell me you're hurt

unsure of what you deserve

tears fall to my shirt while I hold you

tell you I love you

you say you love me too 

like we say everyday

in a truthful but platonic way

nothing has changed

in any way, and I'm to blame

so say my name. I'm just sad that

of course id be the one to fuck up a good thing 

Watching "When Harry Met Sally"

sitting wondering if you're thinking about me

I don't know where it all came from

I didn't plan for this to happen